As a writer, I experience many roadblocks that I tend to get overly upset about. For instance, writer’s block is something that plagues me every time I go to write. I always have an incredible idea but when it comes to writing it down and expanding on it, I freeze. I think it’s because I have a tendency to overthink things and strive for perfection. Nothing is perfect, and nothing will ever be perfect; there is always room for work and edits.
Something I really struggle with and that I’ve struggled with for a long time, is my stutter. It doesn’t always come out but when it does I freeze and wish I could backtrack and never speak again. Now this might seem completely unrelated to writing, but it has everything to do with my writing. I tend to overthink what I want to say and then when it comes to actually speaking, I freeze and begin to stutter and get frustrated with myself. It’s this overthinking that ruins my writing and allows my stutter to become a mental stutter as well.
Overcoming a stutter is really hard, especially when people tell you “you don’t have a stutter”. Just because I didn’t repeat what I just said about ten times doesn’t mean I don’t have a stutter. I have to think and repeat what I want to say mentally over and over again and even then what comes out isn’t what I wanted to say at all. My therapist has told me to not get frustrated with myself, none of us are perfect. This sense of perfection is what drives me WILD. I have to be a perfect writer, I have to be a perfect “thinker”, and I have to be a perfect “talker”. No I don’t. I think it’s time I embrace the stutter and just say whatever I want to say (within reason of course).
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